Is It A Goodbye!! (Part 5)

Is It A Goodbye!!

                                                                   

Maybe I'm wrong, or maybe I'm right,

Maybe I'll hurt you for a while.

Each breath I take has a purpose,

To keep my heart safe & free from nervous.

We started well, but it's slipping away,

Acknowledging the differences in the minds,

We shall part our ways, to make it right.

The Inner Odyssey

There comes a moment in life when you no longer seek validation from others or need their stories to shape your path. You realize that everyone’s journey is unique, and what may work for one might not resonate with you. When someone offers advice, thinking they’re your well-wisher, it’s not necessary to argue or present counterpoints. Instead, ask them: What drives you? Why does this path call to you? This question opens the door to understanding their motives, which might be rooted in circumstances beyond their control—much like the countless shifts I’ve encountered in my own career.

The question that haunts many of us: Did I have a choice? For me, the honest answer is No. Unlike others who are privileged to follow their passions, I didn’t have that luxury. In this material world, survival requires energy in the form of money, and so, my journey began. My first job was at a BPO, a position many in India look down upon. But I ignored the societal judgment, embracing this opportunity as my first step into the working world, filled with remote work and the enigmatic allure of late-night shifts.

Life, however, has a way of throwing unexpected challenges. After undergoing three surgeries to remove my gallbladder, I found myself financially strained. Yet, in life’s ironic twist, my next job was in the alcohol industry—another temporary, dark chapter in my life. It didn’t take long for me to recognize that this path wasn’t aligned with my true purpose, but it taught me a vital lesson about survival.

I used to live with my mom and stepdad, wishing for just one day of freedom—to be alone or with friends—something I was strictly forbidden from. But now, I have that freedom, with no one to stop me. Yet, freedom without direction can be as suffocating as a cage. Someone once told me I never gave any field enough time to build experience or earn well. But they didn’t understand—I couldn’t afford to stay stagnant. I had no safety net, no backup. My only choice was to keep moving, like a spinning top, driven by an inner promise.

I made a vow to myself: before five years passed since I left home in 2019, I would prove to my stepdad, my mom, and the world that I didn’t need to compromise my integrity to survive (some bitter words that a woman said to another woman and still being my mother). Instead, I would work hard, juggle multiple jobs, and pursue different fields to fulfill the deeper purpose of my heart and soul.

Life isn’t just about surviving—it’s about thriving, even when the odds are stacked against you. Just as every tiny speck of dust holds its significance in the vast universe, so too does every tear shed by a person. Yet, in today’s fast-paced world, few take the time to understand this truth. Some rush through life, while others drag their feet. But for me, turning 27 feels like a red alarm—a call to dive deeper into my purpose.

Like Bhagvad Gita also says, BG 6.5:

"Uddhared ātmanātmānaṁ nātmānam avasādayet; 

ātmaiva hy ātmano bandhur ātmaiva ripur ātmanaḥ.”

(One must elevate oneself by one's own mind, not degrade oneself. The mind is the friend of the conditioned soul, and his enemy as well.

This shloka emphasizes self-mastery. Balancing Ida and Pingala is essentially about mastering the mind and ensuring it doesn’t waver between extremes but finds harmony in the middle path.

BG 6.16-17:

“Nāty-aśnatas tu yogo ’sti na caikāntam anaśnataḥ; 

  Na cāti-svapna-śīlasya jāgrato naiva cārjuna. 

  Yukta-āhāra-vihārasya yukta-ceṣṭasya karmasu; 

  Yukta-svapnāvabodhasya yogo bhavati duḥkha-hā.”

(There is no possibility of one's becoming a yogi, O Arjuna, if one eats too much or eats too little, sleeps too much, or does not sleep enough. He who is temperate in his habits of eating, sleeping, working, and recreation can mitigate all material pains by practicing the yoga system.)

Explanation: This shloka underscores the importance of balance in life. It directly relates to the need to harmonize our internal energies. By maintaining equilibrium, we can attain a state of yoga, where we are free from suffering.

Therefore it’s time to say goodbye—goodbye to the conventional life, to the easy routines, and to the distractions. I’m embarking on a new path, one focused on self-satisfaction and self-realization for the next 6 plus 3 months. It’s no longer about understanding others first; it’s about understanding myself and the universe within. And follow this routine:

1. Morning Practice (Brahma Muhurta - 4:30 AM to 6:00 AM)

Pranayama: Nadi Shodhana

Meditation: 20-minute meditation focusing onthe third eye (Ajna Chakra).

Affirmations: "I am in harmony with my inner self."

2. Physical Exercise/ Yoga/ Surya Namaskar (Sun Salutation) to activate Pingala energy, followed by Chandra Namaskar (Moon Salutation) to activate Ida energy. This creates a balance between physical exertion and mental calmness.

3. Mindful Eating

4. Midday Reflection ( short break to reflect on your thoughts and emotions. )

5. Evening Wind-Down (Journaling)

6. Before Sleep (Yoga Nidra)

Happy Journaling 

&

Happy Goodbye :)